~*~Username and Title:Fake-angelic. Hmm, does that mean you're a bad girl? Bad girls' diaries are always fun to read. "Won't you catch me..."...hmm, sounds a bit needy and obsessive.-3/5.

~*~Thoughts While The Page Was Loading:Ouch. Looks a bit panic-room, there. -2/5.

The Starlit-Lily Factor:

~*~Does Your Soul Shine Through? Yeah, though I wince to think of it. You're so...negative. So pessimistic, and clingy, and obsessive. You're also one to ramble and be horribly vague. You exude negativity, even while you exude a sort of intelligence. But you're weak. You're very weak, although you don't seem to fail to recognize that. You're honest, which I respect and like. You seem like a girl who's had a rough time--been there, done that myself, though I wasn't affected as badly as you seem to have been. I don't really like what I see, but I have to grade you for showing what you do--although you don't ever actually come out and say who or what you really are. Do you even know? -28/35.

~*~Are You Observant Of Beauty? If you are, that transcendental, non-self-absorbed observance of beauty is completely lost in your ramblings and obsessions and self-abuse. You talk about an ambiguous he, someone whom you seem to love...but then you talk about another he whom you seem to hate. I hate this vagueness. It's incredibly irksome. And since all I saw in regards to a mention of beauty was the occasion smile...I have to mark you rather low here. -5/35.

Layout:

Ugh. Just looking at it depresses me. I have to give you points--it certainly suits your mood and personality. The grays and blacks seem almost scientific in their sharp tidiness, and the girl in it is...hmm...okay, it just disturbs me. It's very bleak and unsettling, and when I look at layouts, I hope to find layouts that are aesthetically appealing. You didn't really hit the mark with this one, I'm afraid, though it's certainly neat, tidy and utterly morbid. An artistic representation of you? -11/20.

Navigation:

Organized, uncapitalized...I really have no complaints about the organization at all, though I'd love to see those link faces capitalized. It was really nice having the Previous and Next buttons at the top of the table for the entry. I love that. -9/10.

Content:

~*~Your Content:I started at the beginning, and read through to the index. That being said...

Your content...is interesting. It's morbid, it's depressing, it occasionally makes me want to scream and beat my head against the computer screen. Your diary is one long, shrill scream--whether it's solely from you or carries a harmony from the reader, I'm not entirely sure.

Your writing is disjointed and aching, as if you were moving stiffly about after having been in a car accident. You write, apparently, whatever comes to your mind, and you don't bother to stop and think--you just write. You use your journal as apparently your soundproofed room where you can scream your head off and no one will care.

You have a few sunny moments. You mention brief glimpses of smiles, of laughter, in your life. It seems you not only agree with, but practice, the the quote near the beginning of your diary in which you state that entries can only be written when the diarist is unhappy, and that nothing at all can really be said when the diarist is content or happy. I got really excited every time I saw those glimpses of happiness. I've been in the grips of clinical depression before...okay, for the past several years...and I know how important those sunny moments were. I was happy for you when I saw them.

Your words are beautiful. I'll definitely give you that. But your thoughts are so ugly. I wish I could just open your eyes for you, let you see what I see in you, even after simply having read your diary. I wish for you the simple ability to see and love the beauty in yourself, and in others--in the world.

I wish you all the luck in conquering your unhappiness.

-58/70.

~*~Your Grammar and Spelling: Rant-style journal or no, I'm a grammar Nazi who refuses to accept anything less than an attempt at perfection. A few typos here and there are okay, but you never capitalize, you shorthand a lot of things, which irritates me. Nonetheless, you seem to have a fairly good vocabulary. -3/10.

Extras:
You've got quite a few. Though...I really must be honest...the pictures of your slashed skin are heinous and seem to be seeking attention, which I despise. That's disgusting.-8/10.

Will I Return?

...Probably not, except to check up on you ever so often.

Comments:

Brightest blessings to you. Your score may seem a bit low, but remember...I promised you honesty.

Total:127/200.

Fade - Glow

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