~*~Username and Title: Toxic Desire. What a thought-provoking message. Oh, jeez, I hope this one isn't a cutter.-3/5.

~*~Thoughts While The Page Was Loading: Hmm...I think that image is ugly...will it grow on me?-2/5.

The Starlit-Lily Factor:

~*~Does Your Soul Shine Through? Yes, it does, Miss Olivia. I can see precisely what and who you are, even if you sometimes seem to question that yourself. In fact, you're so much like me in some ways it's rather spooky. You come across as a somewhat otherworldly, sagely young woman who, despite her wisdom, still has a certain childlike innocence and sensitivity about her. And it's beautiful. Although you obsess way too much about boys.-30/35.

~*~Are You Observant Of Beauty? Yes, very much so. You're the most observant of all the diaries I've read thus far, both for reviewing purposes and for simple reading. Here is where you remind me of myself, because some of the statements you make are like echoes of things that can be found in my own diary. You see beauty in people, in the world, in simply existing. I love that about you.-40/35.

Layout:

I like your layout. Really, I do. The blue background is soft and soothing, and appealing to me. The font is simple, yet attractive. It's soft enough that when I was reading your diary late at night, it didn't wear my poor eyes out, and yet, it's bright enough to provide a perfect contrast. The only thing I'm not wild about is the image. The wording is beautiful, and it suits you, the romantic/obsessive that you are, but the image itself rattles me a bit. However, kudos for making your own layout, and double kudos for fixing up the image yourself. It's just not my style.-17/20.

Navigation:

Oh, man. Your diary is possibly the best-organized I've seen. The links are all in a beautiful little drop-down menu right above the entry, making it wonderfully easy to find things, and all your extras are grouped together neatly. I heart your style. However, the link colors vex me a bit. They bore me. I dislike being bored.-9/10.

Content:

~*~Your Content: Olivia, baby, you say you're not a good writer? I personally beg to differ in a big way. Your vocabulary is fuller than most sixteen-year-old girls', which I adore, as I myself have an extensive vocabulary. Your words are evocative--sometimes they made me smile, sometimes they made me furious, and sometimes I had to stop reading your diary so I could think about what you'd said.

You talk about the guys in your life more than anything else. There I have to smile, because in that aspect you're very much the normal sixteen-year-old that you want so badly to be. Your incidents with Matt definitely caused me to take pause, as part of me simply wanted to applaud you. I imagine you want to know why, and I'll tell you. Your friend Stephanie is a bitch and she deserves it if you had some interesting escapades with the guy she likes. I didn't catch all of what went on between you, but if she calls herself your friend but ditches you over guys, she's not. She just wants someone she can kick around to make herself feel better, because some people are mean and nasty that way. Unfortunately you seem to let her.

I found myself wanting to cry for you at times. I see you, unknowingly, wandering on the same path I myself have trod. Please don't let people push you around. Don't let them back into your life if they've hurt you. You say that you live in the past--well, that's not healthy, but let your apparently vivid memory keep you from taking them back into your life. They're not worthy of you. I know the thought of pushing them out probably makes you panic, because you can feel the loneliness swooping down to roost, but, Olivia, loneliness is worse than the pain they'll bring you. How do I know this? I've already been there and done that.

I found it spooky that today, when I was finishing up reading your diary, I came across the entry that said, "Why can’t people just be supportive of me? This bothers me that people can’t care enough about me to listen what I have to say without trying to always get back at me for it...". There is a very similar statement in my archives. Do I have any advice to pass along to you? (Well, first of all, go and get yourself a birth chart. Do report back what your moon, Mercury, Venus and Mars are, will you? I'm a big astrology geek and I'm insanely curious.) Yep. I sure do. You're not precisely of this world, Olivia. Some people just aren't. And your life will change for the better when you understand that and accept it.

~*~Your Grammar and Spelling: Almost perfect, except where you slipped with the spelling on some words, and you use "&". That's annoying. Don't do that.-7/10.

Extras: Quite a few, and beautifully organized. I heart your extras.-10/10.

Will I Return?

Yes. No questions asked.

Comments:

Olivia, life sucks right now. That's just the way it is when you're smart and Watery and a teenager. I'm sorry you have to go through so much junk, but I promise you, it gets better. Oh, and truthfully...guys are not worth the fuss. When they are, there's no fuss to worry about.

Total:198/200.Welcome to the Garden.

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